Thursday, July 06, 2006

Houston...we have a heartbeat


I know you can't see a damn thing and really, well, Beanie is only someone a mother (or a father...ok or grandma) could love at this point. But if you look at the bottom left where the "cross, dot, dot, dot, cross" measurement is, there's a blob with a bright spot.

The blob is my perfectly sized eight week, four day old Beanie. That bright spot, my wonderful friends, is a heartbeat. Honest.

You see, this is the first time ever that we've been able to see such a wonderment.

I can't even begin to tell you what that means to us. I cried on the table and told the doctor that it was the first time I've ever cried over something GOOD at an ultrasound.

I know that if it's at all in the realm of possibility to have good thoughts and prayers lead to this, well, I don't know that I'll ever be able to thank you enough. Now, that doesn't mean you can start slacking, mind you. We have quite a few hurdles to go.

For now though, THANK YOU. To anyone and everyone who wished we'd see this day. It's truly a miracle.

But lest you think me too optimistic...I of course only allowed myself about an hour of happiness before I got online and Googled "chances of miscarriage after heartbeat". It's a hard habit to break.

25 Comments:

Anonymous Mom said...

I'm so choked up. You're right; Grandma loves Beanie. Thank you for posting the ultrsound.

Mantra: one day at a time with only positive thoughts.

11:21 PM  
Anonymous V-Grrrl said...

I was thinking about you all day yesterday, annoyed that the time difference was so huge between California and Belgium that I'd have to go to bed without knowing how the ultrasound went.

The bright side: getting up this morning and reading your post made my day.

I'm praying for you. If you're going to Google, you must Google "women who had babies in their 40s."

My mom and Grandma for example.

12:02 AM  
Anonymous M-I-L said...

Here's another choked up Grandma checking in :*-) I'm so glad you posted the ultrasound pic! 'Cos you were going to have to send a photocopy to me if you hadn't! You're gonna have to start an album you know!

Keep thinking positive thoughts! We're all thinking them for you here in the UK too, you know!

You'll know you're getting over the negative thoughts and heading into the positive when you stop checking sites about miscarriage, and start checking sites about 'Problems in labor for the Elderly Primagravida' ;-D

Love to you ALL! xxx

12:14 AM  
Anonymous Jess said...

This? This is excellent news. So glad to hear it!

4:44 AM  
Anonymous mamatulip said...

Man, that's amazing. And beautiful. And fabulous.

5:14 AM  
Blogger Arabella said...

I'm so, so glad.

I was thinking of you yesterday and wishing you well as I lay, meditatively, on the acupuncture table. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

7:09 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Harridan said...

This is the best blog news I've heard all week!

Keep up the good work. :)

8:45 AM  
Blogger Amber said...

Yaaaaaay! Congrats to you both, I'm so happy for you!

8:58 AM  
Blogger #1 Dancer said...

FAAAAAANTASTIC!
Still praying over here and thinking of you!!
It's funny... once you've had your own u/s you really can see a whole lot more in those fuzzy snow pictures. I could clearly see it and I think he/she has your eyes and Mr. Blogger's chin. A beautiful child.
Glad it's going good!

12:21 PM  
Blogger aka Brandi said...

TEARS! I am SO SO happy for you! But you won't see any slacking here. Continued well-wishes and prayers.

1:57 PM  
Blogger kiwi said...

I can't even tell you how happy we all are. Jose, my mom, and I are overjoyed for you and Mr.B. I know you have a ways to go but you can look forward to all of the craziness.

3:22 PM  
Anonymous MB said...

Woo Hoo!!! Grow, Beanie, grow! Continued good thoughts and prayers coming from us. Take good care of yourself that that precious, little bean. ( I personally think she's a future Bruin GPB.)

3:37 PM  
Anonymous Nancy said...

So happy for you. Still thinking and praying and sending happy vibes so that the Beanie will grow and grow and grow!

7:52 PM  
Blogger Dan said...

The Ultrsound picture was wonderful to see. I wish you the best, and will keep you in my prayers.

4:41 PM  
Blogger Mignon said...

Brooke, that is just wonderful. I'm going to bed with a smile tonight and I'll be thinking about you often. Thinking positive good things for you.

And hey, you forgot the condom? You're like a pregnant 40-something-going-on-16 chick! Good thing your braces didn't get stuck together! ;)

9:40 PM  
Blogger Rock said...

I think you need to call your cable company....

12:24 PM  
Blogger little sister said...

YAY FOR BEANIE!!! WOOOHOOOOOO!

Now just get lots of rest and eat lots of apples or whatever fruit or veggie you desire and drink lots of milk and I hope your beanie doesn't decide to hang around the womb for an extra 3 weeks like mi hija did ;)

CONGRATULATIONS!

5:32 PM  
Anonymous TB said...

I just did a little dance for you. Really, I did. Right here in my new living room, still filled with boxes I need to unpack :o)

So happy for you both.

5:59 AM  
Blogger Annie, The Evil Queen said...

Hooray and Mazel Tov! Continued prays are being issued from the kingdom and I can not wait to see those lovely fuzzy ultrasounds in person!

3:49 PM  
Blogger Nina said...

I was connected to your blog through Paige/AKA Brandi...Congrats! And I look forward to more news through the Traveling Journal. (I'm on the list.)
If you read my blog today, you'll read a little bit about puking, too. I did not go into heavy detail, but with my final pregnancy, I was so bad I had to have a pic-line put in my arm (they give those to chemo patients who can't be stuck with needles multiple times throughout the day), and had to have medicine,etc. delivered to my home. I didn't gain a pound until my third trimester. Alas, it all turned out okay as I am sure yours will. Puking is a good sign!!!

8:38 AM  
Blogger Melanhead said...

I disappear for 3 months and look what happens. Hurray for you and your little Bruin Beanie! :)

8:18 PM  
Blogger rockmama-in-waiting said...

Hi, just stumbled across your blog via Babes in Blogland! Looks like I inadvertantly stole your post title; sorry about that! :) Congrats on seeing the heartbeat! Amazing, huh?

5:43 AM  
Blogger mamalujo1 said...

Still praying, and still glad to see you back.

11:32 AM  
Blogger Kristen said...

Congratulations! Wow, I just can't imagine the shock and joy and amazement you must have felt..!

7:17 PM  
Anonymous Kristen said...

Many congrats to you. I have had a couple of losses - and know the feeling.

It must have been a lovely sight.

8:45 PM  

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